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puszysty at 02:29pm on 29/06/2006
puszysty at 02:29pm on 29/06/2006Why am I only 20 and feel like I will never be anything but a failure?
So far all I've been able to get are shitty jobs. I apply early, I apply late, but I'm still stuck with like 2 options. People I know are less capable than me (and a year younger) I have found out are working office jobs at the same company that basically told me I will never qualify for an internship there.
I think I do a good job at work and my bosses still get mad when I ask for a short break or try to work out a scheduling conflict. It's my f'ing fault anyway- I told McDonalds I was available til 4 and Hardings only that I was not available during mornings, and this Saturday I am scheduled there til 4 and at Hardings starting at 3.
I will never be popular enough, pretty enough, or complaint enough for anyone.
No one will ever want me, just like they never have.
The only thing I am any good at is plugging numbers into equations and coming out with the right answer. No one even knows what an 'international studies' major is. Only way anyone will ever hire me is have I have a specific law degree from some prestigious school, not some small private college that nobody's ever heard of.
So far all I've been able to get are shitty jobs. I apply early, I apply late, but I'm still stuck with like 2 options. People I know are less capable than me (and a year younger) I have found out are working office jobs at the same company that basically told me I will never qualify for an internship there.
I think I do a good job at work and my bosses still get mad when I ask for a short break or try to work out a scheduling conflict. It's my f'ing fault anyway- I told McDonalds I was available til 4 and Hardings only that I was not available during mornings, and this Saturday I am scheduled there til 4 and at Hardings starting at 3.
I will never be popular enough, pretty enough, or complaint enough for anyone.
No one will ever want me, just like they never have.
The only thing I am any good at is plugging numbers into equations and coming out with the right answer. No one even knows what an 'international studies' major is. Only way anyone will ever hire me is have I have a specific law degree from some prestigious school, not some small private college that nobody's ever heard of.
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