puszysty | (no subject)

I've been in a terrible mood all day. More job stress. I feel a) depressed, b) like it's all my fault, c) that I am an uncaring citizen for not exactly wanting to join some kind of volunteer corps d) like I am never ever going to get out of this shitty little town and that I'll be working minimum wage jobs for the rest of my life e) that I am a total loser f) like I can kiss my dreams of going into international trade goodbye f) that my college education means absolutely nothing g) that I'm making excuses for myself but don't know what I should do instead.

I've been told "oh you should look into such and such a field" by so many people, and I feel like giving in just to make someone happy. Making myself happy seems pretty much impossible at the moment, so if someone is happy, that's ok right?