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Someone on my FL made a pot about being a grown up and living in the "real world", and well. Such posts always make me feel like shit. Primarily because I'm stuck in limbo between college life and the "real world". Or maybe I'm still trying to convince myself that the myth of getting a job after college is actually true. Every time someone I finished school with gets a job in their field, I become more depressed. One week from tomorrow, it will officially have been 12 months that I finished school. Twelve. A full year.

Yes, I know you've all heard me whine about not having a job a million times now.

I don't feel adult. My parents are still paying for my insurance because I don't make enough money. I've been thinking about taking a PT job at a store or restaurant or something, but wondering if anyone will bother hiring me. I don't get home til 5:45 most days, and I need time to eat dinner (health issues don't allow me to skip meals), which means I'm really not able to get to another place until about 7. Think anyone will take me for just weekends?

If this is the "real world", I hate it. I'd rather go back to school, where my efforts actually paid off. I've entered into a mindset of "why bother" lately, and I know that's bad, but I'm not sure how to get out of it.
I just don't have the time to pull together grad school apps before the deadline, so it'll be at least a year and a half before I could actually go back to school again. I made a HUGE mistake in not going earlier.

I also may have made the mistake of moving to a city that contains the largest college in the US. Thousands upon thousands of grads who have the advantage of going to a recognizable college that recruiters actually bother to visit.
(By the way, career services at Hope tried to get me access to some of UT's job search functions. I haven't heard a thing from them.)


God, and I was having a good day too.