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I'm depressed. I know, I've been through it before. The listlessness, loneliness, lack of energy, feeling like I want to cry more often than I should, thinking that I'm nothing but a finanical burden on my parents (which at this point is probably true). I had originally planned on being out of here by March. Well it's March and I still haven't even been granted an interview let alone had any job offers. I'm still here with little hope that I'll be leaving anytime soon. "You'll find something eventually" is cold comfort right now.
I just don't know what to do about it. My parents have never understood how things upset me; I'm sure their response would just be "no you're not." I can't afford to see a counselor since the money I have saved up is really only enough to fly me someplace to meet with employment agencies there. And you know, seeing a counselor isn't going to get me a job.
I applied at a temp agency to get me out for a while, but with the economy as shit as it is in Michigan, my chances of finding something aren't really looking up.
I got my diploma in the mail today. I guess that should make me feel accomplished, but it only made me feel like a loser.
I'm frightened that my dad is letting people know that I'm here, because I don't want people in town to find out what a complete failure I am. I went to college to get out of this miserable place. Now look at me. I'm still here.
I really don't know what to do anymore guys. I can't live like this anymore, but I don't know what to do to get it to change.

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hiya, i don't stalk you, I swear, but I browse 'round popslashers' friendslists and I've been catching your job seeking posts. I don't really have any practical advice but when I was looking for a job, albeit not a professional one 'cause I'm still studying, I applied for a job I totally wasn't qualified for and blagged my way through. I was sorta' lucky but. I guess what I'm trying to say is: you are obviously motivated, keep your chin up. Just keep writing applications, you might not get the best job but once you've got one and you're saving money and outta your home town you'll feel more financially secure and will be able to keep looking. Not to be patronising because I'm sure you know all this already. Just throw yourself in the deep end. It doesn't always work but it's worth it when it does.

Bleh people who are all overly positive and boring irritate me so just ignore this if it annoys you.

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I browse 'round popslashers' friendslists I do the exact same thing, so it's perfectly ok.

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[hugs]

It's coming up on three years since I graduated college - I finally managed to find a decent job about a year ago, and moved out of my parents' place just under seven months ago (wow, that part went fast). So let me reassure you that it will happen - although these things do take time, and like you I have issues with depression and that didn't help matters at all.

If you're feeling depressed then it's easy to feel like nothing will ever go right and nothing can help you, but there are treatments to help and I found it really worthwhile to try them. (I've done lots of counselling, and I was on anti-depressants for a year and a half, which really helped me find a baseline for "normal" that I didn't have before.)

If I can help in any way let me know, okay? I have been there, and I know what it's like to feel trapped and hopeless, but trust me, you will get there.

*hugs tight*

Which is little comfort I know, but I'm here listening, always.

*hugs*

Okay, it's time for a reality check. You're putting way too much pressure on yourself! You've only been out of college a few months. I know people, very smart guys with degrees in chemistry and math, who ended up back home in Michigan (Grand Rapids, eep) for an entire year before they got a job. The economy sucks really hard right now, *especially* in the midwest.

So you have to realize that this isn't your fault! There is nothing wrong with you that's making it hard to get a job. Not at all. And I know it's hard not to blame yourself, but all you can do is keep trying, you know?

And if all else fails, I highly recommend a year of AmeriCorps.

Bridgman is pretty much like Grand Rapids, except much smaller and change 'dutch' to 'works for the nuclear plant'.

I suppose blaming myself is half the problem, but I can't seem to stop myself.

It's really hard not to blame yourself, but you have to try because it really ISN'T reflective of any lack in you. Three months from now when I can't find a job either, I bet I will be moaning to you about it, too :P

I have to agree with everyone else. And technically, you're still on "summer vacation" if you want to put it that way. Most people when they graduate do NOT have a job and it takes about a year or so to find a stable, entry-level job. You're fine and you are NOT a failure. I know it's hard, but don't put so much pressure on yourself. That pressure may come across in interviews, too. Anxiety is contagious. So just relax, be confident, and you can do it!