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While at work today, one of my coworkers asked me to type up some notes for one of the attorneys. No problem. I went into our database, and pulled up the template for a blank word document (so it'd save directly into the database). Only, it wasn't blank. In the document was someone's notes to someone else about their thoughts on me. It said that they thought I could do the job with a lot of supervision, but that I had zero personality.

Instant nausea.

Even though I might should have, I didn't mention it to my boss. For one, I am naturally frightened of people in higher ranking positions than me. And also because my thought was- what if this note was written for my boss? And they were asking for employee input on me? What would the reaction be if they found out I saw something I wasn't supposed to see? The person who I suspect wrote it has been there for 9 years, I've been there a month, who do you think is going to get priority about their opinions?

And what if everyone else at the office thinks I'm an inept loser? I'm going to have to start at square 1 again for job hunting.

Well, at least my roommate isn't here to tell me to shut up and stop worrying.