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While at work today, one of my coworkers asked me to type up some notes for one of the attorneys. No problem. I went into our database, and pulled up the template for a blank word document (so it'd save directly into the database). Only, it wasn't blank. In the document was someone's notes to someone else about their thoughts on me. It said that they thought I could do the job with a lot of supervision, but that I had zero personality.

Instant nausea.

Even though I might should have, I didn't mention it to my boss. For one, I am naturally frightened of people in higher ranking positions than me. And also because my thought was- what if this note was written for my boss? And they were asking for employee input on me? What would the reaction be if they found out I saw something I wasn't supposed to see? The person who I suspect wrote it has been there for 9 years, I've been there a month, who do you think is going to get priority about their opinions?

And what if everyone else at the office thinks I'm an inept loser? I'm going to have to start at square 1 again for job hunting.

Well, at least my roommate isn't here to tell me to shut up and stop worrying.

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That's awful. You should probably talk about it to your boss anyway. In the slight possibility that he asked for it, it will only engage discussion on what you could improve on at work.

And that person you suspect clearly doesn't know you if she thinks you have no personality.

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If it's any comfort, the person who managed to save a document as a template isn't the sharpest crayon in the box. If you didn't just erase the content, it gives you a perfect excuse for approaching your boss about it—"I don't know whether you want this saved somewhere else, or if I should just clear the template?" You'll learn not to be afraid of your boss once you start seeing his/her flaws, but it'll take a while. Alternatively, you could show it to the person who asked you to do the typing, and comment that you're surprised someone was so stupid as to save the document to the template.

I think it's very hard indeed to make a worthwhile character judgment about a person after only a month. The exceptions are the really noisy and the really creepy people—unless the person doing the assessing is a 'loud' personality and expects everyone else to be likewise. Hah. I expect the same might have been said about me at every job I've ever done for as long as a month. It's a horrid thing to have been exposed to, but the thing to do is, take it as an incentive to prove the writer wrong. Be excellent at your job. And decide for yourself whether you like the place and want to stay, or would prefer to take a chance on finding somewhere better—don't let this incident turn you into a mouse.

*hugs*

Wow, yeah I am amazed that something like that would be available for just anyone to pull up.

And I agree it is one person's opinion, based upon limited contact. I would definitely talk to your supervisor (or maybe even your recruiter) about that.

Is the job temp to hire? As in they have to pay for you for a certain amount of time before they hire you? I would think if they had no plans on keeping you, you wouldn't still be there. It's expensive to pay for a temp you don't want. I can't imagine there are problems that can't be worked out.

Honestly, you should approach your supervisor and ask them if for feedback. If you are feeling uncomfortable with this situation (which sucks all the way around). But your supervisor should be providing you with constant feedback, especially since you are somewhat new there. It's not unusual for feedback from peers to be requested, but they should be reviewing this with you as well.

The most important thing for you to have is a relationship with your leader, if they feel you are open to suggestions and can come to them with questions and concerns, it will help you.

What. The. Fuck. That's so not cool.

But if your boss really was asking for opinions, I'm sure they got several different ones.

*hugs*