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I am so stupid.

I dropped in on 'guy' last night. Mainly because I was kind of upset that he didn't show up to game night Friday, and thought that hey, I might hang out with him for a little while yesterday. Well, I started out a little upset, I ended up really upset. First of all- my dad was here yesterday for the powwow, and I knew/thought 'he' wanted to meet my parents at some point. Well, guess who's too busy vaccuuming. :P. And later that night we're out with a girl I shall call Abigail for the time being, and she says that she needs to drop off her car at her parents and that she'll do it later unless we want to meet her parents and he says 'oh I'd love to meet your family.' I felt insulted.
And oh, while me, him, 'abigail', and alan (I'm not angry with him, so we'll use his real name) were out...the three of them always feel the need at times to just start speaking in spanish....this happens whenever I'm with the three of them. I don't speak effing spanish! They know that. It's like I'm no longer welcome in the conversation. Not that I'm sure I was b/c with 'abigail' I feel she has this tendency to try to exclude me from the convo anyways. But ugh...at least speak a language I understand dammit.

But mainly I'm pissed because I had a conversation with this guy about people choosing to ignore me and then he goes and does it himself.

Why the hell do I keep hanging out with this guy if I only end up miserable later? I mean, yea, I like hanging out with him because he's nice and we generally have a good time. But then....
I left last night to go hang with my old roomie, because I just couldn't take it anymore.

I just want to be done with the feelings I have for this guy! It would make things so much easier.