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I'm depressed. I know, I've been through it before. The listlessness, loneliness, lack of energy, feeling like I want to cry more often than I should, thinking that I'm nothing but a finanical burden on my parents (which at this point is probably true). I had originally planned on being out of here by March. Well it's March and I still haven't even been granted an interview let alone had any job offers. I'm still here with little hope that I'll be leaving anytime soon. "You'll find something eventually" is cold comfort right now.
I just don't know what to do about it. My parents have never understood how things upset me; I'm sure their response would just be "no you're not." I can't afford to see a counselor since the money I have saved up is really only enough to fly me someplace to meet with employment agencies there. And you know, seeing a counselor isn't going to get me a job.
I applied at a temp agency to get me out for a while, but with the economy as shit as it is in Michigan, my chances of finding something aren't really looking up.
I got my diploma in the mail today. I guess that should make me feel accomplished, but it only made me feel like a loser.
I'm frightened that my dad is letting people know that I'm here, because I don't want people in town to find out what a complete failure I am. I went to college to get out of this miserable place. Now look at me. I'm still here.
I really don't know what to do anymore guys. I can't live like this anymore, but I don't know what to do to get it to change.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I just watched Across The Universe. I have to say: what the fuck?? Who thought up this movie? It started normal enough. Then it turned into some trippy animation, no point, gotta be on drugs to get it kind of thing. And after a while it became 'how many Beatles songs can we get in a movie?' Which, just by the way, is a lot. In conclusion: weird.

Last week I saw 10,000 BC in theaters. It's ok. Quite unbelievable. and a little reminiscent of Ten Commandments near the end. I wouldn't necessary recommend it, but I wouldn't say 'stay away!' either.