puszysty

Whenever I get into a funk of some kind, I listen to Nsync a lot. Why I don't know, it just seems to work well as a pick me up. These past couple days I have been listening to Nsync a lot. I know I'm in a funk, I can feel it. I don't know what I'm in a funk about. It could be just a back to school type thing. Like classes and jumping back into the social life I left in May. Though I think it's probably more. I got real deep thinking the other day about religion and truth and what I'd always expected of religion, and how that's not what happened, and if there really is anything that I see as truth, if there is such a thing as truth (I'll stop there; an entry musing about that would be much longer than I feel like typing at the moment): basically all this stemming from listening to my religion prof talk about his trip down the path of religious discovery. And then there's this guy issue. I know it sounds petty, and maybe it is, but it doesn't feel petty right now. I've always held that if it's just a crush, it'll go away. I figured this thing, whatever it is, would go away over the summer (yea 4 months without seeing the guy I thought would do it, distance before seemed to be the factor of disappearance), but no, it's still there. And I haven't been able to catch the guy alone even to just retest my inner waters, lord knows I've tried, and that is just driving me nuts even more. All of this, and probably more than I can't even explain with words in the English language right now, seem to be what's leaving me in this big funk. Even my penguins dont seem to have the word I'm searching for in terms of mood. And I don't know how I'm gonna get over this funk. I think for now I'll just stick to the Nsync.