I don't understand myself, yet I understand myself completely

[puszysty]

Whenever I get into a funk of some kind, I listen to Nsync a lot. Why I don't know, it just seems to work well as a pick me up. These past couple days I have been listening to Nsync a lot. I know I'm in a funk, I can feel it. I don't know what I'm in a funk about. It could be just a back to school type thing. Like classes and jumping back into the social life I left in May. Though I think it's probably more. I got real deep thinking the other day about religion and truth and what I'd always expected of religion, and how that's not what happened, and if there really is anything that I see as truth, if there is such a thing as truth (I'll stop there; an entry musing about that would be much longer than I feel like typing at the moment): basically all this stemming from listening to my religion prof talk about his trip down the path of religious discovery. And then there's this guy issue. I know it sounds petty, and maybe it is, but it doesn't feel petty right now. I've always held that if it's just a crush, it'll go away. I figured this thing, whatever it is, would go away over the summer (yea 4 months without seeing the guy I thought would do it, distance before seemed to be the factor of disappearance), but no, it's still there. And I haven't been able to catch the guy alone even to just retest my inner waters, lord knows I've tried, and that is just driving me nuts even more. All of this, and probably more than I can't even explain with words in the English language right now, seem to be what's leaving me in this big funk. Even my penguins dont seem to have the word I'm searching for in terms of mood. And I don't know how I'm gonna get over this funk. I think for now I'll just stick to the Nsync.

Comments

[parkjoonhee.livejournal.com]

oh no! :-( well if you ever need to chat, VV37 is always open! :-) come visit us!

*hugs*

[basslikesitruff.livejournal.com]

Ooooh darlin, this is new coming from your direction. It was bound to happen sooner or later. Have you any idea whether he might be interested in you as well? NSYNC is great for a funk, but if they stop working, feel free to talk to me. Seriously. I'll email you my contact info if you'd like. Mean time, just keep getting yourself enmeshed in the social stuff...it'll help take the edge off the angst.

[puszysty.livejournal.com]

I have no idea, which is part of what's bothering me. I swear, it'd be nice if I could read minds.

[mnemesene.livejournal.com]

If you need to talk let me know! Movie night school help some, btw you know I'm definately coming right? :)

[ledadada.livejournal.com]

Is this the same guy we were talking about a long time ago? I think I said go for it then, and even though we haven't talked in awhile--which, holla if you want to talk, but I'll probably say go for it still, just because I hate being in limbo. Knowing, if he does or doesn't, will help you work through it. That's just two cents in case you make it through all the albums and the Christmas and European ones.